TSK continues to be a wonder-filled vision for me, and the exercises IN Time have allowed me to remain in the presence of the aliveness of Time...or in actuality, to BE that aliveness, and be connected to that Being all around me in all directions...this vision is SO awesome...so opening and freeing...if you guys have not checked it out...please do...I LOVE IT!!!!!!!
focusing on not-knowing...practice notes
the actual ‘focusing on not-knowing’ frees you from the necessity of having to know in any determined or solid sense, and so it creates an opening of what was once ‘known’ which in turn allows for as many possibilities as the mind opens to...
since mind is no longer struggling to analyze this or that, or to make this knowing fit in that box thereby continually smothering itself with the solidity of what is known, other options open up...
what I have noticed along with the ‘joy of being’ and the ‘aliveness of Time’, is that when you are actually ‘living’ or ‘experiencing’ this ‘aliveness’, it seems like you can go in all directions at the same time, and not ‘feel’ pressured, and actually participate in so many meaningful ‘real life’ situations with clarity and presence that were not being 'picked up' on before...you are ‘more present’ in whatever is being presented. awareness is crisp, and you can even ‘see’ things before they actually happen b/c you are paying attention in a more direct and alive way...b/c you are actively involved in whatever is presented, you can also see the many possibilities, and since you are not ‘binding’ them with a ‘solid’ past, the ability to actually ‘create’ your reality presents itself in a ‘whirlwind’ of energy or activity...
Time expands in all directions and is no longer confined in the linear moment to moment unfolding, and since you ARE that energy, you no-longer feel drained or pressured by the confines of linear time...there is Time...for everything and more...
I have been ‘tapping’ into this energy periodically now for sometime, even before I actually ever heard of TSK...we all do, b/c that IS what we are, but for the most part, we are unaware of it b/c our mind is so busy trying to analyze, or ‘stay ahead of the game’ and ‘out-think’ or ‘out-run’ time instead of just ‘flowing’ naturally IN time like children do naturally before they are conditioned otherwise...where I have felt this most is within nature, or in my daily meditations, but it is pretty awesome now that I can just relax right into it no matter where I am or what I am doing...and it is a more ‘intense’ feeling than just this presence of bliss or joy of being that I have become so accustomed to...it is filled with excitement and aliveness and possibility...this energy on the edge of Time is vibrant and filled with wonder...
Much of last weekend was spent laying on clover in the park...IT WAS AMAZING...there was this energy sweeping up through the trees and the trees were actually ‘dancing’ with the wind and IN time...everything was so vividly green and alive...my spirit of being was picked up with that energy, became that energy and I began to see things that ordinarily I would not have been aware of...it is more than just a ‘feeling’ of being connected to all of being, which is experienced inwardly...it is actually ‘being connected’ to all of being...and it is more of an ‘outward’ turning without any distinction really between inner or outer...there is a very powerful difference that can only be experienced by ‘tuning’ in to that energy of Time...or actually ‘becoming’ that energy...it is very magical...while form doesn’t change, or how I see form does not change, the interactions of it does...the presentation is like a dance, filled with beauty and grace, with a squirrel, birds, butterflies, ants on my blanket, brilliant sun rays dancing through the swaying branches and leaves, winds actually singing through me...people playing tennis, volleyball, maybe i’ll go over and introduce myself and play...little children skipping and jumping and taking walks in the park, dogs and their owners dancing into vision, colors so beautiful my heart bursts with ecstasy...someone says, ‘beautiful day’, my body replies with a smile all over it and a passionate ‘YES’...all the while taking all this in and reading my book and analytically musing about the archetypal constructs in my reading and how they apply to me or those that I know well, also musing how it is that linear time is no different, just perspectives ...opening ...beyond their predetermined limits...checking my e-mail, doing my stretches, eating my lunch, experiencing that wonderful smell and taste, enjoying it to the up-most...talking to my friends on the phone...making plans for later...WOW...Time opens up experience...Space allows for anything and everything...Knowing brings an overwhelming since of appreciation...bliss...dancing...alive...Being this Knowing of Not-Knowing, this Time...this Space...MAGICAL!
cultivating gratitude...
this is something that I actually began doing in recovery three years ago...and so with TSK, it has just been a matter of really opening up that attitude of gratitude, and embodying it on a deeper level instead of it just being a surface exercise to make me feel better for the moment...
physically I had felt bad for so long, and always looked to doctors, drugs, alcohol, Jesus, religion...anything that would ‘fix’ me...it was normal for me to wake up ‘feeling bad’, and to feed those ideas with justifications of why I was feeling bad...even to going back into the past to explain to myself why, reinforcing what happened and when, and how that caused this, etc...then I would go into long dialogs with myself on how I would go about changing what I could or accepting what I could not change...but I would get very discouraged and just ‘give up’...and at times felt so trapped by all the physical things that I was experiencing...I had good days and bad days, and had accepted that as my fate...this cycle of hope and then giving up seemed to continue and I was destined to live it...until TSK and its vision opened up my awareness to the patterns I was unknowingly reliving and reinforcing...
when I got into recovery, I began surrendering all my old ideas over to a power greater than my ‘self will run riot’...at first these were just my ideas about my addiction to drugs and alcohol; later it was about my actual ideas about life and my beliefs, my patterns of behavior, my relationships, and looking closely at my attitudes and getting honest with me and the actions that had led me to where I was, which continued to limit my ability to live life on life’s terms in a responsible and adult fashion...more recently it has become to be about the actual physical limitations that have continued to perpetuate themselves through my allowing my past to carry over and shape my present...
The thing is, whatever we think...we give power to, so instead of feeding the already structured pain of the past, I began to listen to my body and work with it to release the energy that was stuck and had been continuing to cause pain, and open that up to a broader focus or perception...it is not that the pain was not real, it was, it is, but what I do about that pain and what I think about that pain has an active creative effect on the actual structure and cycle of pain...When I fill my mind with gratitude, and I in turn begin to ‘live’ that appreciation in my very being...magical things happen...when I begin to ‘think’ in more constructive and healthy ways, I begin to ‘act’ in more healthy and constructive ways, and instead of trying to ‘think my way into right action’, which is impossible, I began to ‘act my way into healthy behavior’, which has had amazing results...
When I began to honestly look at all I had to be grateful for, I ‘put on’ or embodied that appreciation, and that action, actually gave energy and power to the focus on the many healthy aspects of my life which were there waiting my attention, which has had a domino effect in the since that it is an ‘on-going’ process of actively freeing ‘stuck’ or ‘trapped’ energy, whether manifested as unhealthy beliefs or ideas, or tensions or memories stored in the physical body or psyche. when you learn to recognize and use your own energy, and also the energy that surrounds you, it is very powerful and can be used to heal the injured areas of the physical body and the emotional psyche...
When I focused on the problem...it became bigger...when I began to focus on the solution...the problem began to diminish...go figure...lol...when I actually opened up to all the possibilities...Time opened up for me into a Dynamic of aliveness... although recovery gave me a foundation for this years ago, TSK has helped me to open it up at different levels...instead of taking awareness ‘off’ of focusing on the physical pain, I actually just ‘dive’ right into the pain and own it...that has had an ‘opening up’ effect and has been very healing... as I continue to recognize and become more aware of my own patterns of behavior and deep emotional conditioning and how they affect my life, I continue to release myself from my self-imposed limits...
appreciation is a door to the joy of being and the aliveness of Time in Space that continues to open when I allow for its opening...
always, star...
PRACTICE NOTES TABLE OF CONTENTS
Fall 2008 - Unit One: Inquiry, Space
October 6 - December 5, 2008
Davidu
1. Layers of Mind with TSK
2. Exploring Layers of Mind with TSK
3. Space of Memories of Layers and Contexts
4. Expanding with TSK
5. Expanding - Revealing the Field
6. Condensing Experience with TSK
7. Week 7, Generating Space
8. Tracing the Tendency toward Solidity
Balder
1. Layers of Mind (TSK Practice Notes)
2. Deepening Layers of Mind
3. Week Three: Exploring Space and Form
4. Week Four: Expanding Layers of Mind
5. Subject-Object Reversal (TSK Class 9)
Debyemm
1. Layers of Mind (TSK Practice Notes)
Winter 2009 - Unit Two: Thoughts, Stories, Self
January 12 - March 13, 2009
Davidu
1. TSK Course Two - Time (Thoughts, Stories, Self)
2. Week Two - Thoughts that Establish
3. I'm Telling (TSK Unit 2, Week 3)
4. Unit 2, Week 4 - Defining Stories
5. Models, Stories and Self - Week 6
6. The Founding Story of the Self (week 7)
7. Imposing Reality & the Cycle of Seeing, Week 9
Balder
1. TSK Online Course (Unit 2)
2. Watching Thoughts (TSK Class 2, Unit 2)
3. Telling Stories (TSK Unit 2, Week 3)
4. Telling Stories 2 (TSK Unit 2, Week 3)
5. Personifying Thoughts, Embodying Space (TSK Unit 2, Week 5)
Starlight
1. Adventures with Time, Space, Knowledge
2. Noticing Thoughts - TSK Exercise
3. once upon a time...tsk exercise
4. restoring multidimensionality...tsk exercise week 4
5. Memories, Models, Stories, Immediate Experience...TSK Exercise...
6. self interpretation...models...tsk exercise...
7. core self...tsk exercise...wk 7
8. self and world given...tsk exercise...wk. 8
9. Creating My Reality...TSK Exercise...wk 9...
Spring 2009 - Unit Three: Conducting Time and Knowledge
March 30 - May 29, 2009
Davidu
1. Objects of Desire - TSK Class 3, Unit 1
2. The Edge of the Future - Class 3, Unit 2
3. How Time Recreates - Class 3, Week 4
Starlight
1. Objects of Desire...TSK class 3...unit 1...
2. on the edge of time...tsk exercise class 3...wk 2...
3. Time...Past...Present...Future...wk 3...
4. Moments of Time...wk 4
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