OPENING...
i've been reading for two days now, the given readings that will eventually lead up to a blog post...i have no idea what i am doing...lol...
today while reading my thoughts went to how i came to tsk in the first place...i always had that desire to inquire...and looking back, it was one based on basic ways of inquiring...accepting this, rejecting that...but no matter where i thought i had gotten to, what i had rejected would always pop its head up again, and what i had accepted, would always change...
what tsk gives, is an open-ended inquiry based on knowing from not-knowing, and a different world infinite with possibilities...it is like going on a treasure hunt...every moment really...a new adventure that opens up knowing to the moment of experiencing without preconceived or established rules or interpretations...
at times i get dizzy on the groundless ground...but in accepting where i am, i do not have to accept that solidity of where i seem to be...i can always open it up...like an explorer on an adventure...finding more treasure...the treasure is not something that i own or something that can be owned individually by me...it is what Being is...infinite treasure...
when i first began my tsk journey, i had all these 'ideas' about what i did not, or would not believe...what is being realized now, is that those are 'fixed' beliefs in and of themselves...
i was trying to get others to see things 'my way' without ever trying to see things from their eyes...what a lonely isolated place for Being to not be able to breathe...
MORE OPENING...
from the vision of tsk, everyone and everything is an invitation to experience the living,
breathing, aliveness of knowledge in the here and now...instead of 'being' 'caught up' in whatever is unfolding...Being can join the play of life unfolding as an ever-changing dance of Being itself...where there is joy and humor, sadness and delight in every moment...it just becomes a matter of paying attention to the all of what is being presented, without our normal attachments or non-attachments...and since the all of what is being presented has infinite possibilities...there is no boredom, no binding
to this or that presentation...even when it appears to be negative, that is a judgment that you can open up to...and allow in more imagination...so that there is no, being bound by this or that, no matter what is being presented, Being is ever-free, for it is ever-changing in its wondrous magical dance of the real...alive in the ever-moment of Being...
my good friend Bruce said: "everyone needs a story."...well, i was different...i did not need one, especially one that someone else told me i had to believe...but what i did not realize until recently, is that i had been weaving my own story out of what i did not believe...and it was a story, that continued to prevent me from being free in many ways...it reeked of arrogance, in that i thought everyone should listen to me, do things my way...which prevented my own being from seeing the beauty of being that all those other stories also offer...
what else it did, was prevent my own opening of Being, to other dimensions...those alive with imagination and creative potential...and although i believed myself to have found my own place of Being...one which was filled with joy and compassion and bliss and peace...i had cut my being off from the brilliance of others...Being...and so restricted my dance of light, and my frustration at a world that did not make sense, continued to creep in and disturb that very Being i had thought i had located...lol
it reminds me of a lovely scripture that i grew up with which went something like this...you cannot hide your light underneath a bush...
everyone has this same light...and until i began weaving a story that included these lights, then how bright really can Being shine?
what i am also realizing, is that i do not have to denounce the beauty of things, just b/c i might not understand the presentation...b/c when i do this, i do not allow for beauty...and not wanting to accept the presentation has had more to do with my conditioned beliefs then the presentation itself...for whatever reason, i learned to see the presentation of religious belief systems as stagnant, hypocritical, and down right depressing...
today...seeing the beauty through the misunderstandings is more beneficial to the intimacy of Being itself...you cannot hear until you open hearing...you cannot see until you open seeing...you cannot truly Be...until you open Being...
so goes this journey of Being human...integrating at all levels...opening up to an infinite potential of intimacy of Being...in the ever-present, ever-changing, knowing of time in space...what a beautiful and wondrous, never-ending dance of Being, this magic of the real...
this opening of intimate Being...
the dance of TSK and intimate Being...
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November 2009 
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