is Mother Nature laughing...
when she blows creations down?
she teases with our infrastructures...
without empathy...she drowns...
does she specify her targets?
does she know which way she blows?
is she really filled with anger?
only Mother Nature knows...
she brings with her such vengeance...
is there message in her voice?
telling humans to beware...
or is this only noise?
maybe we should pay attention...
when Mother Nature screams...
to more than just the obvious...
to the larger meaning of things...
may we learn the harder lessons...
and open to intelligent change...
in harmony with Mother Nature...
ideas...now rearrange...
StarLight Dancing...

facts are, i am human at this moment, the sun is shining on me when it is, the world is round today, i can die, if i play in traffic i just might get ran over, hurricanes can be dangerous, i
can make intelligent decisions today, i am responsible for my actions, beliefs, and feelings at this very moment, i am aware right now...etc...

truth is what is lived each moment...so if i am living a truth that is not based on facts,
then my truth is false...truth is everchanging b/c facts are everchanging...

good one Siona...lol

i took a trip down memory lane...
took a peek into insane...
i opened up a door that i opened before...
with only me to blame...
i didn't ask for these conditions,
and yet i walked them into real...
now i'm left with my own rendition...
and owning all the pain i feel...

i took a trip down memory lane...
into the shadows of my past...
before i realized it had crystallized...
then i took off another mask...
i didn't see the train a coming...
so i didn't get out the way...
i'm still cleaning up the wreckage of the last train wreck...
with no one left to blame...

i took a trip down memory lane...
all the while thinking here we go again...
slipping in and out of past bad habits...
up and around the bend of it aint them...
doing what i've always done before,
expecting truth to magically change...
stumbling around in self-made confusion...
till all old ideas rearrange...

i took a trip down memory lane...
have no legitimate right to complain...
if i can't do nothing else, i can be true to myself...
and admit when i've acted insane...
i was fortunate this time, with my state of mind...
to escape a nightmarish end...
lucky for me, i can still remember...
and today i refuse to pretend...

just another trip down memory lane,
a moment of relapse, into insane...
nothing is broken that can't be repaired...
in a moments notice...i'm already there...
claiming another piece of my pain...
just another trip down memory lane...
it only takes an instant to recognize sane...
when you take another trip down memory lane...
just another trip...down memory lane...
StarLight Dancing...

so much history; so much past...
water underneath the bridge...
and yet it flows into today...
defining rock and ridge...
every step along the path...
has got us to this day...
learning; growing; into complete...
evolving; creating the way...
not sure of where it's going...
yet sure that it will go...
in each defining moment...
of every ebb and flow...
stuck in a space of struggle?
relinquish...just let go...
accepting all just as it is...
yet questioning what you know...
building upon all that is past...
yet not clinging to concrete truths...
ever remaining open to change...
inviting each instant anew...
sometimes the water is icy...
sometimes it is less than clear...
everything imaginable...
can bring the mind to fear...
dive into the unrestrainable now...
use wisely those rocks and ridge...
ride the wave of unknowing...
in the water underneath the bridge...
StarLight Dancing...

i have no ground to walk on...
just infinite state of being...
even labeling it that...
is not true to it's seeing...
for if there's something that can be...
then it can also not...
true freedom may rest in losing...
even that little blue dot...
if the universe goes on forever...
would it not go the opposite way?
no limits to really go beyond...
is where true freedom plays...
but wait, it's really nowhere right?
and yet it's all things in space...
imagination creates potential...
for everything to change...
what would energy look like?
if all of everything disappear?
what would energy sound like?
if we had no ear to hear...
how would awareness recognize,
without these eyes to see?
without all that's reflected...
awareness could never be...
so dance and play along your way...
in form and emptiness...
in and out of all that is...
chaotic...eternal...bliss...
StarLight Dancing...

space...vast...eternal space...
already implies it is not...
this journey of remembering...
all that we've forgot...
vast...eternal...spacelessness...
wrap the mind around that...
then let both ideas vanish...
and all the other cats in the hat...
just experiences of the mind...
playing in and out of being...
understanding beyond all limits...
must be the ultimate freeing...
levels of conditioning...
felt in this very form...
the truth of our existence...
why were we really born?
a body, mind, and energy...
includes infinite universe...
a single cell...a living whole...
evolves...to then disperse...
it makes me wonder...does consciousness exist?
beyond all that we know?
is it really evolving?
where is it planning to go?
living in this moment...
is all that's really real...
energy going nowhere...
yet everywhere to feel...
consciousness becoming aware...
evolving into it's own...
creating within potential...
can potential be full-grown?
remain in that open question...
be open to what now reveals...
the knowing of unknowing...
dances the magic of the real...
StarLight Dancing...

i honor all true nature...
and bow to all of life...
energy that is aware...
through form breathed me alive...
the i, i am's connected...
to all of all there is...
i was born of chaos...
into eternal bliss...
feeling the vibrations...
i open up to space...
a part of all of everything...
i go the other way...
i am really no thing...
yet everything beyond...
connecting all that is alive...
the only one true GOD...
energy that is aware...
the tapestry of life...
relax into your own true nature...
free as the open sky...
there exist no levels...
beyond conditioning...
recognize just what you are...
ever alive...and free...
StarLight Dancing...

i heard a blast; i saw a flash; i think it was september;
i woke up to a war zone; that's all that i remember...
voices round me crying; running through the streets;
fires burning out of control; such enormous heats...
the air was thick and heavy; it was hard to breathe;
loved ones gathered in the dust; couldn't bring themselves to leave;
the smell of death was all around; full of panic and fear;
every heart was breaking; every eye would tear...
a country broken; wounds laid bare; nightmares now were true;
all that lay in disarray...well played political coo...
how long will we remain asleep?  following the blind?
believing every lie they tell not thinking with our mind...
justifications for war and death...hidden behind a cross...
pacified with a thought of heaven...believing in what's false...
ask yourself; was there ever a time, when jesus would harm a life?
christians make up our killing machine...and strike in the dead of night...
justifying a time to kill...the warriors of god go forth...
not much different than ancient times...your bible is the source...
otherwise good people...are blinded now with rage...
killing their brothers and sisters; through age, and age, and age...
when will we finally say 'No More'?  turn from all our beliefs?
start nurturing with love the world...and bring much needed relief?
more wars are on the table...the media pressed to play...
all in the name of democracy...another fear-filled day...
what would happen if we laid down our arms...and offered charity instead?
come home; come home; is my request...be responsible for no more dead...
death is real...a part of life...it will come soon enough...
isn't it time we learned to live...together...learned to love?
wake up world and pay attention...mother nature is crying out...
turn our efforts toward healing and love...that is what living's about...
it doesn't have to be a mad mad world; we still have time to heal...
decide today you'll no longer play...open your eyes to real...
for all of those who've died to soon...i honor your memory with this plea...
borrowed words from another...time to choose peace...then, just LET IT BE...
StarLight Dancing...

frustration...a sense of urgency...
penetrates my being...
not knowing anything to do...
to assist our global freeing...
i feel like i am waiting...
for the worst reality...
knowing deep within my truth...
what will, will have to be...
i want to shout wake up!  wake up!
so much that we could do...
and yet i sit here typing...
and feeling like a fool...
they say that love can change the world...
oh universe unfold...
all the love within your being...
eternal golden soul...
our thinking must catch itself up...
allowing our hearts to be true...
universe breathe a sigh of relief...
in knowing what to do...
i'm open...tell me what to do...
my cup runneth over with love...
hateful compassion move us forward...
of ignorance...i've had enough!
restless, irritable, discontent...
yet filled with my own inner peace...
what will move us all forward...
and make this insanity cease?
sometimes it seems so hopeless...
everyone's in their own little space...
whether or not we realize it...
we are the entire human race...
how do we speed up the love we need?
the recognition that all is a whole?
from the furtherest star to the smallest blade of grass...
we make up GOD's own golden soul...
StarLight Dancing...

sages of old helped us know ourselves...
and preached to thine own self be true...
awareness has reached global proportions...
and there is so much more we need to do...
it's like being at the base of another mountain...
yet not knowing just how to climb...
there's an urging inside to figure this out...
before we run out of space time...
all of the wonderful minds of the world...
must join in a new harmony...
coming up with an iron clad fool proof plan...
creating a new destiny...
one not for power...one not for greed...
but for compassion for all that we are...
respecting all of true nature and life...
accepting new truths for tomorrow...
evolving to reach our potential...
as only us humans can do...
protecting, respecting all other life...
if not us together...then who?
StarLight Dancing...

there is a longing in my soul...
calling to nature...go...just go...
find a place where trees still are...
while you can still see the stars...
where springs flow freely out of rocks...
and plant your garden...darn your socks...
grow your peaches...breathe fresh air...
wishing i was already there...
talking walks...through the wild...
playing in the rain...as i did a child...
dancing underneath the stars...
here on earth...not on mars...
animals safe...existing with...
loving life...oh what a gift...
more and more...i'm drawn to this...
the simple life...peace and bliss...
for each tree used...plant another...
always respecting...earth our mother...
a little cabin...would suit me well...
homemade curtains...self-dug well...
what's for dinner?  homemade soup...
homemade bread...for me and you...
plant some flowers...make a quilt...
share with neighbors...the love you feel...
play a little guitar...sing a little song...
know in your heart...that you belong...
to the earth...alive and free...
living together...in harmony...
there is a longing in my soul...
calling to nature...go...just go...
to live the remaining of my days...
loving life...all of...all ways...
urging me to go...just go...
pay heed to longings...of my soul...
StarLight Dancing...

i feel like i should be doing much more...
but i don't know what more i could do...
feeling frustration and powerlessness...
turning it over anew...
giving it up to the universe...
the power of the evolving whole...
doing what is in front of me to do...
letting more attachments go...
awareness is not about not caring...
compassion is it's very soul...
how to live freely yet loving the all...
is now my awakening goal...
i am only human...
one of many we are...
voices raised together...
can it reach the infinite far?
during times such as these...i wish i believed...
in a god that would solve everything...
but i think it is going to be left up to us...
to reach our potential through change...
being the change that we wish to see...
is not not showing concern for the world...
i am one voice among many...
waiting...waiting...to be heard...
StarLight Dancing...

it really depends on how deeply embedded the attachment...in my experience, you have to feel what you feel; sometimes it is not clear as to why you are feeling what you are feeling...it may be something that you might not necessarily remember, so anything can trigger those reactions...the reactions are not always just emotional either...they can be physical, as the body stores emotions within it's muscles...

when i was getting sober, it was a feeling fest...b/c i had been repressing so much for so long...i reached a point where intellectually i had dealt with many things, but my body was still reacting physically to everything...iow, i would still tense up in certain situations, even though mentally and emotionally i had dealt with whatever...i can remember an older lady telling me that my body was still reacting out of habit...it was really strange, but once i was aware of what was going on, it was easier to accept it for what it was...and that is still the case today...

much of the time though, i don't think we really pay enough attention to what is really going on with our bodies, but once we are aware of it and recognize it, then it kinda lets go itself...

i am not really sure how much control we have of actually 'letting go'...automatically just b/c we wish to let go of whatever it is we wish to be rid of...lol...b/c those attachments run very deep...it seems to be more of a process...as we deal with realities, our tangledness seems to relax on it's own...

today i am more aware of what is going on with me...if it is something i have no control over, then i accept it for what it is...if i can do something about it, then i do it...but whatever it is that i am feeling, i know today that i have to take responsibility for it...

i cannot blame my 'feelings' or my beliefs or my actions on anyone else but me...if i am uncomfortable with a situation it is always due to the fact that there is something going on that i am not accepting...now don't misunderstand, if someone punches me in the face, then that is not going to be comfortable...but i have to look at what part i played in that as well...it may be that i was just in the wrong place at the wrong time...or maybe i provoked it...or maybe i did nothing...the idea is that i have to be rigorously honest with myself...and take responsibility for whatever situation i find myself in...esp. where it concerns all the mental misery and emotional reactions...early in recovery when i was living in a half-way house for a minute, there were these signs all over the place saying 'it aint them'...i hated those signs, and still today find myself sometimes saying...'yeah the fuck it is'...but in reality...it aint them...today...i am responsible...

i have also learned through this process, to not form resentments in the first place to hold on to.  that reduces the amount of letting go that i then have to do...

somethings wont let go until they are done...it's a lot like how our lives seem to keep going around in circles bringing us similar situations to deal with...so, if this is happening, then i know that it is a deeper attachment or behavioral pattern that is being nudged...so i have to look deeper...identify what is really going on...deal with it...by accepting it, or changing it if i can...the whole thing is a process of uncovering, discovering, and discarding...mentally, emotionally, and physically...

sometimes it is as easy as just doing some deep breathing...LOL...or getting up and dancing it all out...like shaking out tangled clothes from the washer...sometimes it takes indepth reflection, self-searching, and self-honesty...and in my case...lots of writing...and it's not always so easy...but oh the relief when it happens...relaxing into what is...yeah!

we drive our cars without regard...
do we not really see...
what the fumes are doing...
to earth and you and me...
i took my walk the other day...
and i could barely breathe...
so many cars were zooming by...
this is reality...
we bitch and moan...ignore ozone...
high gas is on our minds...
we ignore the hurricanes...
and pray they pass us by...
we are so distracted...
by the lives we live...
we do nothing different...
all taking...and no give...
at the very least...
we could park our cars...
the very rich aren't worried...
they're finding life on mars...
there are many options...
when will we really care...
our planet is in danger...
we're already there...
more efficient cars...
are waiting to be bought...
maybe you could car pool...
or ride a bike or walk...
public transportation...
needs an overhaul...
we could insist...and resist...
hear mother nature's call...
don't say we can't do nothing...
for that is just a lie...
investigate what can be done...
stop mother nature's cry...
drilling for oil is stupid...
addictions can't be fed...
look at all the wild life...
that oil spills have made dead...
think about the future...
of your own family...
your children's children's children...
fighting just to breathe...
oh listen to the wind blow...
whispering into storms...
we're running out of options...
as our planet warms...
thirty some-odd years ago...
science tried to warn...
that this day was coming...
nature blows it's horn...
will we not pay attention...
do everything we can...
mother nature begs us...
let's join and take a stand...
park your cars or car pool...
ride your bike or walk...
public transportation...
we must do more than talk...
we drive our cars without regard...
do we not really see...
what the fumes are doing...
to earth and you and me...
StarLight Dancing...with ms. z...thnx for the links...
http://www.motherearthnews.com/  US
http://www.idealbite.com/ US
 http://www.biggreenswitch.co.uk/

nature is disappearing...
concrete land in place...
pretty soon we wont be able...
to recognize earth's face...
rain forest endangered...
ice caps melting fast...
we're running out of natural stuff...
resources they wont last...
i look outside my window...
man-made is all i see...
where are all the flowers...
where are the honey bees...
mama's garden's wilting...
drying up to die...
mother nature's angry...
storms are in her sky...
she's scorching and she's flooding...
proportions are disturbed...
will the birds stop singing...
one day without a word...
we're running short of water...
the very drink of life...
we're cutting up pure nature...
allowing it to die...
plastics are taking nature's place...
replacing all that's real...
our yards will just be garbage...
how will that make you feel...
will we miss the rainbow...
the brilliant sun that shines...
the moon and stars will hide themselves...
behind the soot and grime...
nature is disappearing...
concrete land in place...
pretty soon we wont be able...
to recognize earth's face...
StarLight Dancing...

i'm not understanding, why we close our eyes...
but am reminded of my past...oh so many times...
i didn't know...i couldn't see...
so i should understand...
and see beneath the surface...
we do the best we can...
whenever we know better...
than we can do that too...
still can't help but wonder...
what drives us to or not to do...
frustration usually fills me now...
am i numb to pain...
unless of course it hits close home...
compassion rise again...
frustration; compassion; fear; and such...
maybe it is all the same...
energy that's out of touch...
by a zillion other names...
i'm thankful for my writing...
for it gives me focused relief...
lets me pour out all my heart...
energy release...
i send this into the universe...
gaia hear my cry...
are we numb to tragedy...
or crazy from asking why...
i want to say it's ignorant...
idiots; ridiculousness...
all the wars...all the storms...
we don't have to guess...
i remember now...it was my thinking...
that always was confused...
so let us patiently try to reach...
other's with intelligent news...
sometimes we must use the sword...
of truth...cut through...confusion...
back it up with lots of compassion...
guiding other's through illusion...
if we can see beyond the barrier...
and mirror truth to see...
then the thread will be connected...
truth in love...finally free...
StarLight Dancing...dedicated to all that have lost their lives needlessly...(including pets)

i have to thank everyone on gaia today that put up with me...LOL...i was in a insane place...but, i needed to go through what i did...and was able to get through the frustration and confusion...back to clarity...and now...well now i am back to my own true nature and filled with jazzin' joy...in this wonder-filled moment of now...

tomorrow i will be performing some of my originals at the famous BlueBird Cafe here in Nashville Tennessee again...but this time i wont be alone...some friends of mine are joining me...i'll have a blues harmonica player, and another guitar player to go along with my own guitar...we are gonna jam...universe willing and all...LOL...

i am doing two of my anti-drug bluesjazz songs...Painted Lady, and  Lady; and another bluesy one called Muddy Mississippi Blues...i am real excited cause my family is coming, along with about 25 of my friends...so we are going to rock the house...

although i have sang out a few times in the last few years, this past Thursday at Cafe Co Co...i have purposely put my music on hold and put my sobriety first...but, i am really ready now...to pick up what i love...and go forward...

sure wish that you guys could be in the audience...but i will let you all know how it goes...universe willing and all that...and some day soon, i do plan to make a utube...so you guys can finally hear what i actually sound like...till then...it will just have to remain a mystery...LOL

if anyone just happens to be in Nashville...show is at 8pm...BlueBird Cafe...Nashville, TN...LET'S JAM!!!!!!!

much love and joy to all of you...always, star...

There's a full moon over Memphis...
I watched the sun go down, on a muddy Mississippi...
Days like this, it's hard to sing the blues...
But i got me a man, don't wanna do me right;
All we do baby, is argue, cuss, and fight,
But like the muddy Mississippi, that man, is gonna...roll on by...

Well you know what they've always, said about home...
Aint no place like it baby once you've had to roam...
And the grass, it aint no, greener than your own...

So I packed up my bags, came on home to Tennessee...

And all my loved ones, who swore that they loved me...

And here I am sittin all alone on the muddy Mississippi...

I got the muddy Mississippi Blues...

Yeah I lonesome; yeah I'm blue...

Aint wastin no more time, crying over old news...

I'm gonna dry my tears, and do the best I can...

Tomorrow's sunset, gonna be on time...

By then I promise baby, I'll be doin fine...

And like a muddy Mississippi, my blues, there gonna roll on by...

hmmmm, hmm, hmm, hmm
hmmmm, hmmmm, hmmmm...
Like a muddy Mississippi, my blues...are gonna roll on by...

There's a full moon over Memphis...
I watched the sun go down, on a muddy Mississippi...
Days like this, it's hard to sing the blues...
But i got me a man, don't wanna do me right;
All we do baby, is argue, cuss, and fight,
But like the muddy Mississippi, that man, is gonna...roll on by...

hmmmm, hmm, hmm, hmm
hmmmm, hmmmm, hmmmm...
Like a muddy Mississippi, my blues...are gonna roll on by...
tlcoriginals...

i wonder what goes through your mind...
i wonder if it's me...
i wonder about you often...
of how it use to be...
i thought that we connected...
i don't think i was wrong...
i can't help thinking of you now...
so i'm writing you this song...

i have no way to reach you...
i'd love to touch your soul...
only love is meant to be...
i have to let love go...
i'm sending you this message...
i hope that you receive...
i'm saying my goodbyes to you...
so i can set you free...

it's funny how we feel things...
then wonder was it real...
i know that i felt you...
know you were the real deal...
my message in a bottle...
is one i send in love...
i wish you well i wish you joy...
mostly i wish you love...
StarLight Dancing...

secret places...set them free...
give them wings to fly...
holding on to tightly...
torn wings of the butterfly...
i love you, i love you, i love you...
there...finally voiced...
but since you are that very love...
did i ever have a choice?
i don't have to see your face...
i know it's beauty worn...
i know that you are somewhere...
though you were never born...
only for a moment...
you graced us with your light...
i see you in the rainbow...
in the twinkling stars of night...
you haven't traveled anywhere...
i hold you in my heart...
within this pearl that radiates...
but never is apart...
secret places...set them free...
give them all their wings...
then you will fully understand...
just why the caged bird sings...
singing for what's ever known...
whose spirit is never caged...
energy dancing it's emptiness...
from age, to age, to age...
StarLight Dancing...dedicated to all those that we are holding close to our hearts right now...and those that are holding...

you tell me not to hold to tight...
but i can't help myself...
the struggle is an inward fight...
warring with myself...
grasping, clinging, energy...
trapping it...it's mine!
catch and release; catch and release;
all through space and time...
we are such funny creatures...
so passionate of what we believe...
but if we pay attention...
we let go to set free...
catch and release; catch and release;
just like the flow of breath...
energy dancing in space time...
transformed by life and death...
dancing in it's emptiness...
vibrant, chaotic...and free...
alive and everchanging...
catch...and then...release...
StarLight Dancing...

i haven't heard from stacy...
but i feel her energy...
no matter where she is right now...
her essence is always with me...
to read the words she writes so bold...
is to peek inside her truth...
stacy is energy that dances...
regardless of a who...
she experiences with such beauty...
she fills vast space with grace...
every instant alive and free...
kissing her time and space...
dance on your light sweet stacy...
this is your time...your path...
where ever you are dancing...
have a party and a blast...
celebrate, celebrate...
energy is free...
stacy's dancing everywhere...
always...forever...be...
StarLight Dancing...with Stacy...

poetic fingers...weaving words...
a soft healing pillow for the mind...
lay your head on it's beauty...
gently...mesh tangles...unbind...
pure bliss...is magical...
dancing it's chaotic weave...
a tapestry of everything...
take whatever you need...
if you need passion...take it!
peace? it's resting here...
energy is ever weaving...
love from even fear...
let's have a pillow fight...
get those juices going...
a tapestry of everything...
a knowing of unknowing...
rest your head on my pillow...
sweet goddess of beauty and grace...
gentle threads rise to greet you...
as joy envelops your face...
StarLight Dancing...

starlight needs no structures...
to hold it in it's place...
it's free...and ever flowing...
into time and space...
it needs not to be told...
how bright, or which color to shine...
stars radiate rainbows beautifully...
perfection every time...
energy dancing upon it's light...
feel it...FEEL what you are...
everything reflecting...
the dust of every star...
StarLight Dancing...

a kiss on the temple, a gentle kiss
it took me by surprise
seemingly out of no where
tender, caring eyes...
a whisper of "i'm sorry"
"for earlier what i said"
we were headed for the stage
no time for my head
to figure out just what it meant
we had a show to do
but now i'm at home thinking
i'm thinking about you...
the hat you wore you were so cute
my mind's going over the night
the long embrace you gave me
it felt so close and right...
could this really be possible?
two friends we are as such
that kiss on the temple was endearing
there was something about your touch...
i can't get past it...it excites me
the memory is a precious one
i can't stop thinking about you
this time i don't want to run...
i see us laughing together
and sharing a warm embrace
i see us looking in each other's eyes
us gently touching the other's face
i know that you are moody
most intellectuals are
we have so much in common
love of music and our guitars
i see my arms around you now
from behind i kiss your cheek
you gently raise your hand to my face
and now you're kissing me...
is it crazy to think that this might work?
can i bring out your playful side?
you are always so serious...
you isolate and hide...
this will be interesting to watch
gonna just let this unfold
i'll keep my fantasys to myself
until i'm feeling bold...
i do think that you're sexy...
and i felt electricity...
i have to admit i feel it now
is this future reality?
if it is or if it isn't
i'll have the memory of tonight
when you gently kissed my temple
and you warmly held me tight...
StarLight Dancing...

the lights were HOT,
sweat poured from my pores,
my guitar player was new...
i'm painting a REAL picture...
think i lost a pound or two...lol
the instruments weren't loud enough...
but my vocals sure as hell were...
the announcer questioned the need for microphones...
and i thanked them for their applause...
as i belted out songs about real life...
and looked into the eyes looking on...
i realized this crowd didn't have a clue
as to what's really going on...
songs about crack and addiction...
prostitution and the ways of the street...
their world view got expanded a bit...
as they drank and ordered food to eat...
so many blank faces...guess i freaked them out...
but there were others that were feeling the vibe...
eventually glass houses will shatter...
no place for no one to hide...
we live in our little boxes sometimes...
content to stay right there...
i'm convinced it is only because we don't know how...
instead of really not wanting to care...
i enveloped my stories full body...
then projected it onto their screen...
it wasn't nice...it wasn't pretty...
it was a real life portrayal scene...
is there a gentler, softer way?
of seeing what i see?
you cannot shake up complacent...
without dishing out reality...
all in all it was a wonderful experience...
the minor kinks will work themselves out...
i got a clearer understanding of my own path...
i accept what i'm about...
it was nice to have the support of my friends...
the xdruggies and xalchies that they are...
all and all we really rocked the BlueBird...
and maybe knocked the crowd's thinking ajar...
sometimes the truth is hard to swallow...
medicine you don't want to take...
but once you do...it's really cool...
cause you finally KNOW you're awake...
StarLight Dancing...

when i was a little girl, i use to crawl up beside my mom and beg her to tell me the story of her youth...i was fascinated by it, and would romanticize actually living in her time, and would beg her to tell me the story over and over...

my mom was raised in and out of Nashville, but as a young child, she spent her early years in Kingston Springs...she had a very hard life growing up; i know that now, but she use to tell me about it, and i loved hearing the stories...

one of my favs was when she would tell me about how her and her siblings would have to climb down the hillside with buckets to go and get water every day, and fill the buckets up and climb back up the hill...all before having to walk (i forget how many miles) barefoot to school...she would also tell me that she remembered being a small child having to stand on something to reach the stove so she could cook breakfast...

thinking about it now, i don't really know why i thought that was such a great thing...LOL...i think what i loved, was the idea of nature...being so involved with it...springs and wells and hills and walking...beats me...maybe what i really loved was the way my mother told the story...that closeness of child and parent bonding...

another story they use to tell was that i ran before i walked...and that my baby bed got hit by lightening...(so that is what happened!  LOL)...but then later, the story changed, and it was my sister that got hit...go figure...

they use to tell stories too of my father growing up in New York...those were pretty frightening...LOL...damn my parents went through a lot...

so much for stories...joy*

stepped out into my universe...
the air was cool and crisp...
the sky was blue,  the sun was bright...
my mood was light and brisk...
a puppy found me on my way...
and crossed the busy street...
i tried to walk him back across...
but he kept following me...
wanting to play away the day...
i stopped to share some time...
so precious was this puppy...
he would not stay behind...
i did not know where he belonged...
and so he tagged along...
i wondered what i'd do with him...
where did puppy belong?
i stopped by my favorite market...
he kept slipping in the door...
i spoke with a few patrons...
and those that ran the store...
then a customer spoke up...
he'd give him a safe home...
i was torn between knowing what to do...
but i couldn't let puppy roam...
and so i bid the puppy goodbye...
yet a heart tug remained with me...
i turned it over to the universe...
in the moment, again was free...
i spent the day with a dear sweet friend...
enjoying the weather and view...
we watched a speed boat on the Cumberland river...
our energies exchanging anew...
we ate, we talked, we laughed, we cried...
such joyfullness filled our space...
what a beautiful way to spend the day...
falling into fall...in grace...
StarLight Dancing...

to walk awake in the NOW...to breath in and out fully...to feel every spark within you...and without...

to vibrate and dance with energy...to encompass the entirity of this human experience...to open up to everything within and without...to engage completely in the presence of your NOW...to be in touch with that inner joy...that inner being...and connect it to everything reflected without...

that awareness that marries the inner and outer...the yin and yang...true pristine awareness that is not one and is not two...

nonconceptual awareness that is totally awake to the eternal NOW...

when life closes a door...it always opens a window...pay attention to the universe unfolding...NOW...there is always within and without this very moment of NOW...

opportunity, potential, and possibility...

all we must be is awake and open to it's NOW...

always, star...