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December 2009 
humanbeingness...
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as i get older, and more honest with myself and the world i participate in, the more i see
that we as a human race continue to try to escape the very life we are living...
instead of embodying our true existence, and experiencing our own simple, inner joy, we
search all over the world, read tons of books, look high and low, take this drug or that one;
play games with our own minds, desperate for the very thing we all possess...within our very being...
i have never been to another country, but i am convinced that going there would not
suddenly make me more enlightened...now, i might 'feel' that way, but feelings are very
deceiving...and lets face it, we can convince ourselves of anything without really trying
all that hard...or without physically going anywhere...what is called 'spiritual experience'
can be had anywhere, anytime, by anyone...with or without religion, gurus, or outside
stimulants...space crafts, ufo's, or a road map how to get there...
there are plenty of teachings that i am not an expert on, yet i have read many books, and jumped on board the train of many teachings, searching for that level of consciousness that makes everything perfect...and have found, this too, is just another form of escape from reality...
i am not saying any of this is bad...it is what it is...but after all has been said and
done, and we have experienced the bliss of buddhamind, christ or god consciousness, gone traveling on the stars or even visited mars...the thing we can never get away from...that is, as long as we have the breath of life within us...that one universal truth that is always with us...is the very fact that we are human...body, mind, and energy...and we are on this earth, surrounded by our wonder-filled universe...where are we trying to go??????
i have worn a lot of masks in this human existence, not always aware of them, and i too,
have many times convinced myself of this or that belief, and rode high on the skies of the
awakened...and although today, i possess a more realistic view of myself, you, and this
world we inhabit, i am content within it...
i know that this life is temporary...we see it every moment of every day if we are paying
attention...and although i share a passion to make things better in the here and now...i
accept where i am, you are, and we are...at this very moment...
i do not claim to have a level of consciousness higher or lower than anyone else, although
it is difficult for me, and frustrating to say the least, to have to accept how damn dumb
humanity can be and is sometimes...i have come to realize that we delude ourselves in all
sorts of ways...and one of those ways is in thinking we are so above everything and everyone else...lol...we simply cannot get away from the fact that we are all in this together...and our solutions are within us...always have been...always will be...
the thing that i have found to be the most important, is to be true to myself...be honest
with me...what i believe, what i feel, and my actions...and if i am doing that, then i am
also being honest with you...
along this journey i have had all sorts of experiences...but the one that is real...the one
i can always tap into...is the ever-present state of my own true nature...that presence
that is not magic, but can be magical...not found specifically anywhere, but can be
experienced everywhere, can be filled with joy and sorrow at the same time, or transcend
both, that is ever-alive, embodied in this physical being and yet transcends beyond...to be found in and out of nature and it's awesome authenticity...this state that enables me to experience this wonder-filled universe as a complete whole, yet also allows for my own individuality...allowing me to explore this human existence every single moment filled with life and living...there for me to engage and experience...my true humanbeingness...together with you and the world that envelopes us...it rocks!
life can be difficult...i am not dismissing this...this human existence can be very fragile...and there is a natural tendency to want to reach out and help the wounded birds of our existence...and i totally say let's do this! but i also say, let's enjoy the very experience of living while we are actually living in this space...drink up every drop by being present every moment, whether it be with pain and suffering, hard-ache and disappointment, or joy and love, happiness and good health...if your heart keeps beating, the sun will come up tomorrow, and a new day will dawn...so enjoy right now while you still have right now to enjoy...and be human...
much love and joy to all...
StarLight Dancing...thnx erin for the pic!
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awareness… the final frontier… these are the voyages of starlight dancing ….
this is tremendous, my dear. it's finding that balance, isn't it? between exploring everything and helping everyone and really tasting each moment to its fullness. thank you, thank you so much.
lol…dang ms. thang…you are quick…all over the place…all at once! LOL…
thank you for your kind words nicole, and for gracing my blog with your awesome presence…joy*
Refreashing
Inner Joy so natural
Saves on gas too
: )
lol…thnx for sharing your presence…*
Nicole, was musing about what you said about balance, while i was fixing me a big plate of my sister's leftover spaghetti, and i have to disagree with this ultimate 'idea' of finding balance…
although, it can be about that, when it needs to be…it is also about riding the bigest wave in the ocean, and just consuming that thrill, that excitement, that chaos of the unknowing, in that brilliant moment of life that brings it…it is in experiencing the vast unknown, that we can realize and embody that infinite potential…in this very human form…
in my experience, only balance, can get really boring…LOL
during the symposium that is still going on, Matt said something to the tune of 'remaining open', or remaining in that open question…that speaks to my inner truth…if we remain open, to the best of our ability, then our experiencing is unlimited…our 'knowing' is unlimited…our 'being' is unlimited…our very 'living' is without limits if we recognize that open space of potential…
so today, i don't limit living to balance…when the storms in life come…i play in them…as best i can…that might seem childish to some, but i think that children still remember their innate ability to be and live in that magical innocence of the moment…no matter what that moment may bring…that we as adults with all our thinking and doing, forget….
it doesn't mean that when tragedy comes, that we don't take it seriously…but we can seriously take care of what comes, and still not lose that sense of joy within…that is always beneath any surface life that our universe unfolds or presents to us…
thank you for giving me the chance to express what i have come to treasure as life…this very moment…always, star…
I'm feeling you girlfriend; even on the subject of balance.
I've learned I want to take off! Not just even be in balance. Life has such a range of possible experiences associated with it that the first step if you are being tossed around in the movements of the world is to get your grounding… but that certainly isn't the end!
I think that many of us have immersed many times in what was automatic, at our disposal, physical and material things must usually; but don't really step into what is even more easily at our disposal with a mind to enjoy that richness fully also.
That, to be honest, is why I have travelled… and found my way right back home eventually. lol And I still get my greatest pleasures from being a part of nature wherever I am in the world… and this includes my own human nature, yes. Big time! I so enjoy being around real 'at home with themselves' people as well…
You are beautiful for posting. Can we just… er… be?
N.B. I feel inclined to add, I am a lot more contributive and helpful when I chill the hell out lol
And an awesome picture yes. Cool comment LeAnn lol. Talk again. Love you lots. Sherri
absolutely hon by all means throw caution to the wind and ride that wave till it dumps you breathless and exhilarated! love you muchly - big big hugs
it's a joy to be corrected by you :)
ROTFLMAO…Nicole…you are so funny…really have me lol this morning…big hugs back…
and dump me it has and will continue to do…but i will get right back up…and ride the next one…and who knows where it may take me…Barbados? not a correction dear…just an expansion…lol
hey sherri my love…thank you for dropping in and sharing yourself with us…yeah, balance is good sometimes, but then other times, it's like…GIVE ME A WAVE I AM ALIVE…I WANT TO RIDE…lol…
much joy…always, star…
Wherever we go, there we are :)
What a wonderful outpouring of your heart; thank you for your sincerity and passion. And I didn't just stop by this entry because of the pic, lol. When we can embrace all that we are - the joy, the anger, the love, the fear, the beauty, the pain - we can embrace others, too. We can love, unconditionally. We can be loved, unconditionally. On many levels…
You let your spirit and your song soar, my friend. And this Colorado aerie is here with an open door if you want a place to rest, share or explore further the beauty of the earth.
let me get this wedding behind me erin, then we may seriously plan something…
Colorado in the fall?
thnx for your kind words…*