light is reflected...in the stars that shine...
what a beautiful heaven they make...
dancing in harmony...one with the other...
an amazing journey they take...
no star stands alone...or is less than...
all are needed to make up the whole...
grounded in love and the light that is...
our universe...unfold...
awakening to human potential...
where love does overcome fear...
ignorance transforms into wisdom...
hope bridges there into here...
do we dare hope?  do we dare dream?
that things for the better will change?
that humanity will blossom...
that peace will take center stage?
can we really dance free of illusion?
understand being in depth?
let go of our judgments that separate...
embracing the light that is left?
light is our very true nature...
the truth of each human...being...
the essence of heart...child of awareness...
birthing humanities freeing...
StarLight Dancing...

i long to walk through the invisible door...
to a universe that awaits...
myriad possibilities...
the imagination contemplates...
irritable, restless, and discontent...
awareness seeks something new...
is this illusion rising again...
instead of relaxing into?
overwhelmed by such frustration...
is an inability to accept...
manifesting another illusion...
let go to reach true depth...
learning to be content where i am...
sometimes is difficult to do...
energy within feels the need to release...
before i can see what is true...
what a glorious human journey...
to be alive at such a time...
consciousness awakening...
to it's own magnificent heart/mind...
to dance on the edges of knowing...
with a world potential to be...
evolving into...what is true...
pure beauty of being free...
change is constantly occurring...
together...yes we can...
fulfill the all of what is true...
gaia evolving...human...
StarLight Dancing...

so long a seed in isolation...
it takes courage to open up...
walk through this fear illusion...
you are a blossoming buttercup...
for a long time awarness nurtured...
what was needed for you to grow...
now it's time to bask in the sun...
and open...release...let go...
change comes in it's own time...
embrace it with open arms...
what you are is free...
and can never know real harm...
open yourself to awareness...
allow equanimity to flow...
through that invisible portal...
is a universe blossoming gold...
look at the other buttercups...
they are the same as you...
trying to blow free in the breeze...
blossoming anew...
all in gaia's garden...
what a beautiful thing to see...
to be a conscious part of all...
evolving new and free...
feel awareness open...
embrace the all of all...
aware of every buttercup...
open beauty...buttercup...fall...
StarLight Dancing...

the world just seemed more awake today,
as i took an afternoon walk...
even the sky whispered 'open...open...'
as my new neighbor from Finland and i talk...
we spoke of hope...awareness and dreams...
that musician's tend to share...
i left him and walked on...to wash a load...
of clothes...i need clean ones to wear...
as i dropped off my rent...i got a surprise...
a credit...a month plus a little...
those moments of synchronicity...
that mystery within a riddle...
everyone i passed seemed friendlier...
a little girl was singing a song...
she and her mother were smiling so big...
as they held hands and skipped along...
i bought two quarters from a nice young man...
who would not take my change...
the world was kinder...gentler...wiser...
or was it i?  awareness...rearrange...
how blessed i am to know such bliss...
to be given this gift of being...
and now to find it opening up...
and embracing it's infinite freeing...
StarLight Dancing...

oh precious child of suffering...
feel your pain and smile...
know that it will all flow on...
in just a little while...
into the timeless, endless stream...
of pure and conscious being...
allow all energy to flow...
outward to it's freeing...
feel the presence of your awe...
in feeling...being find...
what you are is boundless...
eternal bliss, heart/mind...
allow this energy to dance...
the entirity of humanness...
oh precious child of suffering...
recognize true bliss...
lay aside all of your thoughts...
relax into the the flow...
being's always present...
as conditioning comes and goes...
oh precious child of suffering...
feel your pleasure and cry...
know that it will all flow on...
and pass your suffering by...
the ceaseless flow of awareness...
dancing ever-free...
oh precious child of suffering...
relax into your be...
the path into pure freedom...
arises within you now...
take that first step into bliss...
only you know how...
become a child of freedom...
dance in your own bliss...
oh precious child of suffering...
taste of freedom's kiss...
StarLight Dancing...

the neverending night of joy...
begins and ends with you...
to dance upon it's wings eternal...
only you can do...
embrace it as you would your lover...
making love to the universe...
true nature does it naturally...
and needs not to rehearse...
the feeling of it's fullness...
in infinite time and space...
the spacelessness of being...
within awesome embrace...
the groundlessness of heaven...
is felt within it's sphere...
dancing on the wind of light...
presence...already here...
moving with such beauty...
in harmony with grace...
encompassing all that is...
this very human race...
limitless and boundless...
dark and light your toy...
the power rests within being...
the neverending night of joy...
StarLight Dancing...with Nicole...

if i were to tell you my body aches with ecstasy...
it would barely scratch the surface...of what it is to be...
alive and in this bliss and joy...everflowing, everfree...
filled with peace...a human being...bursting equanimity...
these are only words that are such limits in themselves...
trying to describe the wide opening of humanness...
filled with the endless spaciousness of timeless spacelessness...
filled with the very heart of essence...boundless, groundless, bliss...
felt in every inch of being...every cell of flesh...
yet extending infinitely out...energies that mesh...
the feeling of what happens...total consciousness...
when presence in your being...fully lives it's humanness...
feeling so connected as a body, mind, and voice...
radiating outward song that cannot but rejoice...
all your senses vibrant...awareness is alive...
living, breathing, being...feeling human no disguise...
genuinely authentic...honest sincerity...
the truth of what you are...and what it is to be...
StarLight Dancing...

how is it that we have forgotten...
just how it is to be...
trapped by all the noisy thoughts...
preventing us from free...
looking here...searching there...
desperate to find...
like a shoe that searches for it's sole...
mind futilely seeks mind...
relax into your being...
practice remaining there...
your mind and body will resist...
keep trying to remain aware...
your energy unbalanced...
breath it into peace...
sincerity is all you need...
for illusory thinking to cease...
once you can remain there...
free from all of doubt...
aware of this very presence...
when your up and walking about...
aware that it is what you are...
when you are speaking with a friend...
or using your intellectual mind...
there it is again...
no matter what you are doing...
recognize this awe within...
be filled with your inner joy...
human being with no end...
StarLight Dancing...with Susan...

i've looked at how the world is...
and have wanted to run away...
what do you think might happen...
were i to embrace it's joy and pain?
wrap my arms around it...
connecting with everything i see...
relaxing into my true nature...
allowing all to be...
not making any judgments...
in each moment's simple truth...
acting out of compassion...
moving, knowing into do...
awareness going nowhere...
forever expressing it's energy dance...
i'm learning the universal waltz...
joining it's ever new romance...
to learn to dance this new dance free...
i have to dance with you...
embrace your being with my being...
dance together each moment new...
oh world of joy; oh world of pain;
oh world of laughter and tears...
so amazing to experience human...
knowing love conquers all fears...
dance through all fear...dance through to free...
no permanent surfaces to keep...
awareness breathed itself into being...
so you could dance with me...
StarLight Dancing...with Alluvja

i wrote the first two verses of this song so many years ago that i have forgotten just
when it actually was...damn!  i'm getting old...lol...but i am trying to learn to
experience the process of time gracefully...lol...anyways, i added this last verse after
reading Alluvja's amazing little poem piece in her latest blog here...and also bruce and david's tsk threads have been helping me carry my bliss and joy out into the world of experience...what an amazing journey this is...much joy to all of gaia...and all my friends that continue to amaze and inspire me...always, star...

oh yeah, this actually was the last song i sang...i sang it last night...and i just sang it again adding the last verse...*

direction...

look upon her face...
see the wrinkles where there use to be a smile...
sometimes her eyes they twinkle still...
with the spirit of a child...
she has a dream within her heart...
and it wants it's freedom...
dreams don't know which way to go...
until you give them direction...

she's been a spirit in a prison...
doing time on earth...
and yet she feels there must be reason...
this life that some call god gave birth...
she has a dream within her heart...
and it wants it's freedom...
dreams don't know which way to go...
until you give them direction...

learning being human...
dancing this dream as free...
without the illusion...
experiencing to be...
hope without attachments...
joy and bliss within...
allowing it to blossom...
outward then back in again...
a dream exploding in her heart...
infinite freedom...
energy dancing it's own dream...
free in infinite direction...
StarLight Dancing...with MorningStar  Photo (C) MorningStar, 2008.

will we ever know more than surfaces?
only if we allow their depth in...
taking all in through our senses...
opening up out from in...
what could be more awesome than this view?
do we need to know more than this?
can we not feel the presence of beauty?
can we not feel reflection's bliss?
the unmanifested...manifesting...
in so many brilliant ways...
dancing on it's own energy...
there for us to partake...
taking this view into our very being...
feeling what happens in this...
penetrating the depth of all surfaces...
feeling the energy of bliss...
StarLight Dancing...with Steven Nickeson (thnx for the view from your desk)

knowing this loneliness of being...
emptiness burst into life...
each heart drop filled with overwhelming feeling...
manifesting as day and night...
this potential for such creation...
compassion...infinite energy...
loved this universe into existence...
from stardust a you and a me...
is it too much to hope for? in this human form...
that i'd find you here on this earth?
this longing of sharing awareness with you...
is it purpose for my human birth?
i wait and i feel such loneliness of bliss...
and i wonder where all this will lead...
and yet i am already home in your arms...
awareness is all that i need...
is this what was felt...when your heart exploded?
and awareness danced on the world stage?
in lonely filled bliss...energy created...
this illusion from timeless age...
dreamer and dream...dancer of weave...
what a glorious expression of being...
awareness is ever dancing in bliss...
into it's own ultimate freeing...
StarLight Dancing...

i wait for you...i cannot complain...
such bliss i experience within...
such gratitude for my situation in life...
yet experiencing aloneness again...
trying to understand my existence...
wondering just why i am here...
learning to fly on the wings of grace...
learning to be without fear...
integrating into the timeless stream...
disappearing into total being...
just a slight wondering of what it all means...
what is it awareness is freeing?
experiencing a loss of energy...
while little threads still linger on...
what would it take to disappear...
close these human eyes and be gone...
i am not afraid of this human death...
a heart drop away from pure being...
i welcome completion with my source supreme...
tis total and ultimate freeing...
harder to go on living...
much harder to play the game...
awareness dancing free of illusion...
releasing...it's heartdrops like rain...
StarLight Dancing...

when there is no longer fear of dying or living...
what's left is being infinite bliss...
awareness is ever dancing free...
alone in it's own emptiness...
decorations of awareness...
energy dancing in form...
from the mountain peaks,
to the wide open sky...
to every thing that never was born...
what wonder-filled manifestation...
of the eternal unmanifest...
appearances dancing the magic of real...
born of this feeling of bliss...
to be one with that sense of being...
yet to touch and to kiss your own bliss...
in the eternal flow of energy dancing...
awareness into that and this...
dance in your being...living into death...
no matter what awareness may bring...
tis held in that very heart of being...
until it remembers to sing...
StarLight Dancing...

intention has grown tired...
lost in it's very being...
understanding less than clear...
intention also freeing???
knowing all's illusion...
what is there left to do?
nothing really matters...
no me, no intention too...
maybe it's all that matters...
energies balancing out...
the mystery magic of the real...
and what it's really about...
what if i were to close my eyes?
and finally disappear...
so much for good intentions...
so much for love and fear...
i feel such a displacement...
lost in space and time...
knowledge of my being...
traveling beyond my mind...
and yet there is this nothing...
that no one can hold on too...
and still there is this question...
what is awareness to or not to do?
allowing all to rest in be...
exactly as it is...
waiting on awareness...
to reveal it's ultimate gift...
i use to want to save the world...
from the suffering self-imposed...
i feel i may have been imagining...
that what i am would not grow old...
i use to be high energy...
bursting at it's seams...
intention has grown tired...
of dreaming it's own dream...
StarLight Dancing...

dancing in the middle of madness...
awareness doesn't care...
it neither is or isn't...
here or now or there...
what conceptual nonsense...
deludes the presence of being...
the feeling of what happens...
when nothing experiences freeing...
that's why Lazarus laughed...
whole-heartedly without a sound...
awareness the last illusion...
being with no ground...
to be or not to be...
there really is no choice...
puppets of awareness...
body, mind and voice...
hard to wrap the mind around...
so i give up...no more to try...
no longer afraid of living...
no longer afraid to die...
dancing in the middle of madness...
is the same as dancing free...
no one to dance, no dance, no dream...
no you, no us, no we...or me...
the presence of awareness...
is all there is right now...
until it's taken from you...
puppet take a bow...
if empty bliss is all there is...
and in it you are free...
dance in the middle of madness...
awareness ever be...
StarLight Dancing...

noticing the layers of mind...
what's grasping...what let's go?
what merges then into the stream
eternal conscious flow...
that stream of peace and bliss...
and that which has learned to grasp...
allowing it to relax into...
that is a conscious task...
examining the body when it tenses...
then relaxing it into mind...
noticing how it disappears...
and reappears in time...
learned reactions of consciousness...
in body, mind, and voice...
awareness of this happening...
is a conscious awakened choice...
conditioned awareness striving...
realize and know yourself...
everflowing gnosis...
awareness always felt...
integrating layers...
into the flow of pure...
notice pristine awareness...
dis-ease's only cure...
StarLight Dancing...with various muses...

whether christian, muslim, buddhist or jew...
humanism integrated in all we do...
is this not the common thread...
ever alive...never dead...
universe alive...has given birth...
breathed humanity...spirit of earth...
the minds of science...much to reveal...
a journey of awakening...a time to heal...
looking beyond the teachings we've known...
an ever evolving humanity is sown...
the common thread...awareness seeing...
humanity evolving into it's being...
the very life that gave us birth...
is the very spirit of our earth...
ever blossoming...ever alive...
thread of humanity...within us thrive...
connecting this thread to all of being...
a conscious effort...ever freeing...
awareness pure...pristine bliss...
the common thread...earth's humanness...
StarLight Dancing...

the universe...shows such love...
holding earth in grace...
allowing for humanity...
to see it's natural face...
all down through the ages...
the thread of awareness has weaved...
humanity in it's glory...life itself has breathed...
oh wondrous, glorious universe...
revealing your healing gifts...
awareness of humanity...
dances in your bliss...
spirit of the universe...
spirit of our earth...
spirit of humanity...
awareness giving birth...
StarLight Dancing...

light of humanity...dawning...reflecting...
consuming our very being...
shining within and without time and space...
knowledge...humanity's seeing...
heaven is dawning...revealing itself...
in every corner of it's universe...
potential of humanness never concealing...
light of humanity on earth...
see how it shines...within our being...
feel deeply the warmth of it's light...
follow it's brightness...no beginning no end...
carrying us through our dark night...
how wonderful to know...this very light...
shines through each and everything...bliss...
light of humanity...dawning...reflecting...
our very own...humanness...
StarLight Dancing...with susan and her photo's...lol

i fell to earth as stardust...
already...timeless being...
ancient of old...timeless soul...
burst into heartdrops...it's freeing...
heart essence of being...compassion so pure...
giving life...dancing it's universe...
breathed me into the dust of a star...
everything...a dress rehearse...
ages and ages...evolving in time...
filling the corners of space...
becoming aware of a body and mind...
humanity...recognizing it's face...
learning just how to be human...
to recognize my own light within...
reflecting that drop of light that i am...
outward to humanity again...
dancing my humanness...life-web of earth...
remembering just what i am...
a star that has fallen into humanness...
in the all of humanity's plan...
StarLight Dancing...with susan...

i like to play, on the beach all day...
making castles in the sand...
but the ocean it is calling...
its waves for me to swim...
many sharks they share the waters...
so to be truly free...
i must learn to swim as human...
filled with humanity...
the gift of imagination...
is there for me to use...
and yet the magic of the real...
i find is my true muse...
understanding the depth of the ocean...
is understanding of myself...
body, mind, and voice...
the experience...of what's felt...
awareness birthed the universe...
in turn it birthed the earth...
the stardust of creation...
humanity brought forth...
what creative potential...
awesome...awareness...bliss...
humanity evolving...into its humanness...
StarLight Dancing...with my muse...

i'd like to do one amazing thing...
just one, before i die...
to touch the earth, to feel its heart,
and then to touch the sky...
to climb the mountains of Tibet...
then look out at sunset...
then maybe i'd ski down them...
something i've not done yet...
to swim in the deepest ocean...
go scuba diving far beneath...
to see the beauty that it holds...
and touch the coral wreath...
go sailing on Lake Michigan...
mull through ancient archieve...
or see the University of Memphis play,
a basketball game...live...
to walk the wilds of Africa,
alive with creatures still...
to camp out in the desert...
it's cold winds deeply feel...
to walk through time in India,
or Jerusalem where spirits dwell...
to climb the Eiffel tower in Paris,
or drink from an ancient well...
to dance upon the streets of New York...
and sing to top of my lungs...
experience the beauty of Italy...
eat in Greece before i'm done...
i'd like to do one amazing thing...
oh what i would not give...
to do this one amazing thing...
breath...while i can...and live...
StarLight Dancing...

Counting Crows-"Big Yellow Taxi " Music Video

concrete, concrete, concrete...
when will man cease to destroy...
the very earth that gives us life...
nature that brings such joy...
outside my door not much is real...
that was not built by man...
i long to see and breathe the trees...
connected with the land...
i cannot smell the flowers...
they're few and far between...
my heart it longs for nature...
my eyes for what's not seen...
so many buildings...power plants...
instead of natures gifts...
civilization uncivilized...
hard to accept what is...
our lakes are radioactive...
garbage everywhere...
technology may be wonderful...
to what use with unsafe air?
we haven't cared for earth our home...
it's harmony is out of whack...
we have to take this seriously...
responsibly take earth back...
the only green that seems to matter...
is the one that makes and spends...
greed is killing our homeland...
so much we need to mend...
will there be any beauty left?
for future generations to see...
or only mass destruction...
created by you and me...
StarLight Dancing...

on the other side of nowhere is a garden...
breathed into life just for you...
experiencing, really living its magic...
is what you were born to do...
lying in a field of wildflowers...
on a blanket your grandmother made...
opening up to the wide open sky...
remembering how to just play...
taking a walk through the forest...
a minute to play in the spring...
skipping from rock to rock and then splash...
remember the joy that this brings?
going up into the mountains...
having lunch by its own waterfall...
connected to earth at its level...
experiencing the joy of it all...
taking a nap underneath a trees shade...
with birds singing in your ear...
listening to the soft gentle breeze as it blows...
whispering all nature to hear...
open your eyes...catch light dancing...
as the sun introduces the stars...
trying to spy...the man in the moon...
wondering about life on mars...
the joy of just being human...
appreciating the gifts that earth gives...
everything breathing itself into life...
experiencing the all as it lives...
on the other side of nowhere is a garden...
my heart longs to meet you there...
it must be the paradise of Eden...
on the other side of...nowhere...
StarLight Dancing...

FRIDAY FIVE...my first time ever playing these tag thingys...thnx precious amy for thinking of me...much love and joy...*

hmmmmmmm...i will tag aley, who has admitted in her status bar to having time to play today...LOL; janet, who always takes time to play...susan, who needs to take time to play and who is NOT in school today (i love you susie cutie)...lol...leann...just cause she's special...lol...and gael...who seems to always have time for everything!  LOL...all of whom bring joy and inspiration into my life...joy*

1) What are you thankful for today? 

being alive...

to breathe the air and see the sky...
to experience the joy of being...
my very nature makes me high...
bliss within...my freeing...

2) What do you appreciate about the Earth?

natural beauty...

to always come back kicking...
after taking a human licking...
the seasons changing bring new life...
our earth just keeps on ticking!

3) Who is the last person you said "thank you" to?

my gaia friend Janet who just commented on one of my poems about our beloved earth...

4) When was the last time someone thanked you?

about an hour ago, aley posted on my gv...sending me love...that was better than a thank you...

5) What is your favorite way to say thank you? 

i am a hug and kissy person...very affectionate...i love good long, heart felt hugs between friends...and kisskiss on cheeks...lol

empty rooms...where memories dance...
where shadows rise and fall...
where once was felt...true loves embrace...
now whispers a lonely call...
see the sunlight shimering through...
what once was warmed by life...
time is passing...always passing...
changing from day to night...
pictures that once graced the walls...
have all been put away...
the cozy sofa has been sold...
where memories of us lay...
the antique bookcase, with its books...
the one with the pull-down desk...
sold to some antique lover...
maybe that was best...
the plants and flowers that you loved...
have all been given away...
the words we spoke between us...
even the silence has much to say...
all this echoes in my mind...
along with our laughter that lives...
mingled with the sound of tears...
good byes too...have their gifts...
you will always be in me...
i'll hold you in my heart...
where memories dance...in empty rooms...
never, will we part...
StarLight Dancing...

connecting on different levels...
first we must plug in...
and risk the chance of getting shocked...
time and time again...
sometimes we feel overloaded...
overwhelmed by energies...
and so we may need to unplug...
take time to learn to be...
going beyond the surface...
not knowing what lies deep...
always seems to bare the risk...
of losing our own peace...
when stable in our being...
then risks don't pose a threat...
but most of us still cling to fear...
we have not walked through yet...
looking beneath our surfaces...
connecting to what we are...
honestly looking at what prevents...
or holds us arms length apart...
we'll find ourselves on a precipice...
to jump in or back the hell up...
both can be healthy decisions...
and our process of growing up...
learning to make responsible decisions...
only comes with our willingness to try...
we live and learn...we crash and burn...
life's full of hellos and goodbyes...
i've learned to trust in awareness...
to reveal in its own time...
the interplay of emotion...
layers of body, voice, and mind...
to be honest with what i'm feeling...
and to honestly keep it real...
not trapped by myriad illusion...
yet aware and ready to heal...
to look at these things within myself...
will open me up to others...
one day the courage for potential will rise...
i'll come out from under the covers...
i'll intuitively know how to handle things...
that use to baffle me...
life is a process of experiencing...
my path and journey to free...
the truth is, we are connecting...
even when we're unaware...
we are a living system...
beyond the illusion that we wear...
StarLight Dancing...with Ben and his cool friends...lol

the entire experience of reality...
is a process created in the brain...
damn those intellectual physicists...
they're trying to drive me insane...lol
introducing infinite universes...
before i'm able to understand my own...
i have to LOL...at this journey we're all on...
an endless series of connections...
evolution of humanity...
looking within...is where to begin...
it starts and ends with me...
but wait, i'm just a function...
a network of energies...
effulgent with awareness...
the essence of to be...
what a glorious evolving story...
cosmic reality...
understanding what we are...
our potential of humanity...
dancing this awesome cosmic dance...
is a magnificent place to be...
awareness learning to be human...
dancing it's reality...
StarLight Dancing...

It's the quiet night that breaks me. I cannot stand the sight of this familiar place. it's the quiet night that breaks me, like a dozen papercuts that only I can trace. all my books are lying useless now. all my maps will only show me how to lose my way. oh call my name. you know my name. and in that sound, everything will change. tell me it won't always be this hard. I am nothing without you, but I don't know who you are. it's the crowded room that breaks me: everybody looks so luminous, and strangely young. it's the crowded room that's never heard. no one here can say a word of my native tongue. I can't be among them anymore. I fold myself away before it burns me numb. oh call my name. you know my name. and in your love, everything will change. tell me it won't always be this hard. I am nothing without you, but I don't know who you are.