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November 2009 
mommy lied...
Posted on Sep 30th, 2008
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a little child was crying...
and so i asked her why...
she said that she was crying...
because her mommy lied...
i asked her who she lied to...
she said mommy lied to me...
all these years she did this...
kept me from being free...
she told me that i'd burn in hell...
said something about a soul...
if i did not do exactly
as i had been told...
that god was always watching...
everything i did...
i was afraid most of my life...
to guilty to really live...
there was this creature the devil...
and it could get into you...
in fact i had been born with it...
it had power to make you do...
if i asked for lots of forgiveness...
when i laid me down to sleep...
then if i died while dreaming...
heaven i'd finally reap...
unless i had a bad dream...
what would happen then?
a battle of good and evil...
a soul to lose or win...
i learned to fear this powerful one...
whose name was always god...
forced to believe and live this lie...
he ruled from up above...
she always said god loved me...
it did not feel that way...
why did mommy lie to me?
every single day?
i wiped away this child's tears...
and held her close to me...
i told her mommy did not know...
that mommy was not free...
oh listen now to this child...
listen and understand...
release the ancient chains that bind...
the ones that were made by man...
stop handing down old heartaches...
see what you are within...
stop making your own children cry...
time after time again...
investigate what you believe...
teach children to do the same...
wake up from religion...
it's time for us to change...
StarLight Dancing...with Nicole...
and so i asked her why...
she said that she was crying...
because her mommy lied...
i asked her who she lied to...
she said mommy lied to me...
all these years she did this...
kept me from being free...
she told me that i'd burn in hell...
said something about a soul...
if i did not do exactly
as i had been told...
that god was always watching...
everything i did...
i was afraid most of my life...
to guilty to really live...
there was this creature the devil...
and it could get into you...
in fact i had been born with it...
it had power to make you do...
if i asked for lots of forgiveness...
when i laid me down to sleep...
then if i died while dreaming...
heaven i'd finally reap...
unless i had a bad dream...
what would happen then?
a battle of good and evil...
a soul to lose or win...
i learned to fear this powerful one...
whose name was always god...
forced to believe and live this lie...
he ruled from up above...
she always said god loved me...
it did not feel that way...
why did mommy lie to me?
every single day?
i wiped away this child's tears...
and held her close to me...
i told her mommy did not know...
that mommy was not free...
oh listen now to this child...
listen and understand...
release the ancient chains that bind...
the ones that were made by man...
stop handing down old heartaches...
see what you are within...
stop making your own children cry...
time after time again...
investigate what you believe...
teach children to do the same...
wake up from religion...
it's time for us to change...
StarLight Dancing...with Nicole...
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this picture really works for the poem… it's hard to be truly free but beautiful when we start really to see… love you!
YES…back some years ago, i had a teacher of sorts…she was really just a wise and dear friend…but i look at everyone and everything as my teacher…anyways, this Lady had known me for several years…and saw that i was searching desperately for truth…and she introduced me to Wei Wu Wei…i read everything he had…more than once…and my conceptions began to fall, until they collapsed completely…and there is no going back…there have been times, as i said before, that i have felt so alone…although she and i still connect every now and then…she is not so much in my life any more…different paths and all…but i think b/c of my experience, i sometimes forget that other's have not had it…LOL…my mind has lost the habitual patterns of believing conceptually…you know, that thing you feel deep down in your soul that this or that is true…i just cannot look at things that way, nor can i believe them…i have to remind myself all the time how painful it really is to lose those beliefs that we have spent a life time getting attached to…it is nice to be able to share this with you Nicole…cause sometimes i really do feel alone…but, as i said, many have come to this realization now, and are 'coming out of the closet' so-to-speak…LOL…i am going to see Religulous this Friday with a friend…i KNOW i will be cracking up…but i also know, how offended many are…and i don't mean to do that…but at some point, i just want to scream…GROW THE FUCK UP!!!!!!! but i am reminded too, that each of us is on our own path…thnx for stopping by…i did not expect anyone to comment on this one…it came to me late last night after i had signed off and tried to sleep…awareness is funny that way! much joy…*
i wanted to say one more thing relating to this…as painful as it is to face the lies…it was more destructive to keep them…and the joy and freedom that i experience now…is unmeasurable…and when i seem to push so hard…it is b/c i remember…what it was like then…i was sooooooooooo emotionally unhealthy…and what it is like now…and i KNOW that each and every one of us…has that potential of awareness of joy within …when we can subtract all the conditioning…we can truly experience what we are…awesomeness…much love…*
Star
This poem is remarkable with the Love, Forgiveness and acceptance of self and others brings to mind Heart's tender ribbon weaving through to empowerment. Being true to living with passion. :)
Love it and You
wow…i am so pleased that you were able to see all that…yes, it is a mini version of my broader experience…but the way you described it in your one sentence is totally accurate and amazing insight…has given me an idea for another poem…called…Heart's tender ribbon…weaving…hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm…lol…thnx LeeAnn…it is so awesome that we are touched…we touch…and are touched again…and continue to touch…and be touched…in this amazing journey…
thank you for gracing my blog with your beauty and insight…always, *
simply a mirror Star. :)
I can't wait for that poem.
And yet I will gladly.
I enjoy touch too. LOL
one other thing about this poem…is the wonderful pic that i got from Nicole…and how it actually reflects what i was trying to convey in the idea that the adult in the narrative is actually speaking directly to her own inner-child…that is actually when the healing is allowed to take place, in this process of accepting and so on…becoming aware of that little girl…and taking her in your arms…the healing begins…allowing her to feel and cry…and discover herself in the mirror of awareness…oh well…LOL…the other poem is up now! thank you so much for your inspiration…much love and joy…*
Yes, the photo is powerfully connected to this wonderful poem.
Interestingly, I did feel the inner-child and this process you understand. Healing this child inside releases layers of Heart ache. This Heart ache keeps us running in fear from the Love that is more real than anything.
So cool! It is up already!
I am going there NOW!
i am just so blowed away that you are relating to this so precisely…awesomeness…much love and joy…*
My inner little girl is clapping, singing, dancing, twirling her hair shyly and laughing with delight to say hello to you and your happy little girl inside. :)
She takes time to swing on the swing in a park as she passes by on her walks. :)
Find the gems everywhere!
OMG…i went swinging just the other day…and jumped on a trampoline…i still love to play and dance in the rain and do silly stuff like that…there is no reason to let go of that little child within us…i refuse to…lol…now that she is growing up…i take being grown-up seriously…but that doesn't mean that i have to ever let go of my playfulness….my childlike spirit keeps me young at heart…and i love it…joy*
and you didn't expect any comments! so unpredictable eh? :) love ya!
lol…i have learned not to expect…(recovery roots…expectations lead to disappointments…lol)…so, then when it happens, i am genuinely and pleasantly pleased…much love to you Nicole…*
wow! What a powerful poem! Sweet…..our rock-en-roll Goddess has done it again……………opened up a doorway, urging us to step through and explore the depths of our minds….to find peace, truth, harmony, love and oh so much more…..
*deep bow*
amy…i have missed you…much love and joy…thank you for gracing my blog with your awareness…joy*
I love you…reflecting love all ways..wonderful Star!
my beloved Nikki…gracing my blog with love and beauty…i love you too! thank you for stopping by…and for your always kind and encouraging words…joy*
the photo is slightly haunting and sad, yet beautiful all the same.
((Hugs StarLight))
Healing our Inner Child here with you, Thank You.
Another beauteous poem…and oh so true! I have stopped this chain of Abuse and Control and do not pass on these things to my own children. I will not teach them that stupid thing of laying down to sleep and if they should die before they wake…GASP!!! Also do not like the known fairy tales…they are very insidious things creeping into the child's consciousness with good/evil battles and all that.
You've done a great service with this poem!
Love Youuuuuu!~~<3
thnx desi and welcome to my blog…*
i am so glad that this resonated with you and ariela…much love and joy to you both…sorry i was so late in responding but i had bugs…lol